Taking care of yourself...

Today I went to this training related to my job and we discussed the importance of time and stress management.  Initially, I was preoccupied with how much time I felt I was wasting sitting in the classroom instead of at the office trying to catch up on my work.  Not to sound like an Alanis Morissette song but I realized my train of thought was pretty ironic and finally decided to pay attention.  By the end of the class, I was rather depressed because I realized how much I procrastinate.  This procrastination turns into stress because I end up bringing home my work to ensure my deadlines are met.  Then I realized how stressed my life had become and all the resulting consequences this stress is putting my mind, body and soul.  The next thought which popped into my mind was, "damn i need a new job".  During the drive home, I realized maybe the problem isn't the job.  Could it be I am the problem??  I think so (unfortunately).  I think about all the things I want and need to do but I keep putting off until tomorrow.  I need to get into a healthier lifestyle.  Extra pounds have built up over the years and my favorite line is, "I think I will start dieting tomorrow".  There is work piled up on my desk but talking with my friend across the hall about the recent episode of American Idol is more important.  I am always going to go to church next Sunday.  I'm going to call my dad tomorrow but not today.  Tomorrow I am going to sit down and actually use the Spanish edition of Rosetta Stone or maybe I can read the book I bought last month.  One day I am going to tell everyone I am close to how much they mean to me and how much I love them.  I probably talk to my mom 5-6 times a day but how much of the conversations are meaningful.  Does my husband know how much I love him or how proud I am to be his wife?  What if there is no tomorrow?  I want to live for today and not tomorrow.  If anyone has any ideas how to do that please let me know.  Deep thoughts tonight before I get ready for bed.  Maybe this will make someone else realize tomorrow isn't the solution.